A little blog about the life of a somewhat lost dreamer....looking for my grace in this crazy world.

24 January 2015

I know, it's been forever...

I'm not dead, just MIB (missing in blogging)...  And I have no excuses.

Life has been busy, but isn't it always? Work has been crazy too, nothing new there.  Even my creating has been busy.  It just seemed particularly busy and somewhat difficult because the end of the year has all of those "firsts" after losing Dad... first Thanksgiving, first Christmas...  I've been REALLY busy with Art Abandonment (group on Facebook), with more than 200 pieces abandoned between the end of September and now. 


Frankly, it simply became too complicated to invest a couple of hours or more a day in writing blog posts.  I needed easy and simple... thus quick posts on Facebook became the norm.  And I probably will continue to do more there than here, it's just easier.

But, I am going to work harder at being here at least once a week, probably on the weekends, to say hi and let everyone know what's going on.  And, while it's already almost a month in, I wanted to start off by sharing my word for this year...

My word for 2014 was "aware".  I did a little doodle sort of thing with it in the center and put it on the wall in my studio where I'd have to see it every time I sat at my work table, which is almost every day for at least a few minutes. What better place to put it? I couldn't help but be reminded, right?

Sometime in November I found myself staring at it thinking I'd done a pretty good job with it... the whole being aware thing.  I'd made a point all spring to be aware of the growth and life coming back into the world.  The summer caused me to be more aware of the time I was sharing with my Father.  And then I became aware of how gripping grief can be when I lost him so suddenly.  That in turn caused me to be more aware of how quickly time is passing for me.  And, I've become aware of just how alone I am in this world.  

I became aware that I needed to choose my word for 2015 more wisely... it seems to be much like that old saying about being careful what you wish for... once you've chosen the Universe seems to provide you with unending opportunities to put into practice what you want (which explains why I stopped praying for patience, I was getting FAR too many opportunities to practice it).

So through the rest of November and all of December I gave very serious consideration to what my word for 2015 should be.  And here's the funny thing, every time I contemplated what it should be the word "you" crept in.

I admit, sometimes when the Universe is sending me a message I can be more than a bit dense.  I can be more like a brick.  It takes a time or two, or twenty, for it to come through.

When I did finally realize that I kept thinking of "you" (or, from my perspective ME), it seemed somewhat self-centered. OK, it seemed totally self-centered and selfish beyond measure. I mean, I want to choose a word that would remind me to grow. Right?  To become a better being, to pick a word that would encourage me to do something epic and change this world for the better.  That's the sort of word I need to pick.  Right?

And, again after a few (or fifty) nudges and several cups of tea, lots of meditation and contemplation, I realized something important.  All of my life I have "belonged" to someone else.  I've been someone's daughter. I had been someone's wife. I have two someones who call me Mom... I have been the volunteer who has contributed countless hours to things I thought important.  I have been the artist who cheers others on in their artistic endeavors (while often not believing in her own).  I am the one who gets things done when things need done...

Geeze, maybe it IS time to think about me. 

I mean, there is far less time ahead of me than there is behind me (90 isn't a number most of my relatives have come near in age).  The kids are grown and out on their own. My father is gone. My family ties aren't what I'd call strong (by any stretch of anyone's imagination).  I am not involved with anyone. 

There is no one in my life who needs my time now.  And, in spite of trying, I have found that I cannot force my time on those who do not want to be a part of it.  Lesson learned.

So, this year, my word is deliciously and refreshingly selfish.  It is wonderfully and joyfully self-centered...

This year my word is "ME".  This is the year that I need to bloom.  I need to learn new things, I need to teach new things.  I need to experiment more and try things I haven't tried.  I need to have the courage to live my life on my terms with no apologies to anyone... to satisfy my own curiosity, to begin to create the world I want, based on what makes me feel whole.

So, with all of that, I am back. The blog needs to be cleaned up, lots of things need to be gotten rid of and things need to be re-organized. That's going to take time, and I'm not going to be doing it terribly soon. But a new look should happen sometime this year.

I'm going to be offering a class in late February or early March that will teach creating a small art journal from paper to binding, and there may be a couple more through the year, but we will see how much interest is generated.  But that, too, will come in time.  This week two of my friends at work are retiring, and there is much to be done to send them off right.  So off I go to work on that...

20 October 2014

Spooky little neighborhoods...

I spent last week and all of this weekend building little houses...

Houses with purple doors...

Houses wearing black hats... errr, roofs...

Cute little Halloweenie houses...

Even a tiny little hamlet with a tree...

A whole neighborhood of houses... and there are more waiting to be painted.

And, because of all of the requests... the wee little things will be on Etsy this evening looking for good homes.  If you're interested, they can be found here.

17 October 2014

And we have a winner!!!

Work done, groceries gotten, laundry folded and it may eventually get put away.  Before I start making more little houses I thought I best get to picking a winner.  There were lots of entries and I decided to do things the old fashioned way...

all written on slips of paper. One slip for each entry a person was eligible for (that's why you see Barb and Gill and Snap and others so many times) ...

All folded in half and then in half again...

And the winner is.... Mary!!!

Woo hoo... gettin' Esmerelda in the mail tomorrow so she can fly off to her new home!!!

16 October 2014

Oh my heavens...

With everything else I've got going on I almost forgot... there's a give away happening tomorrow!!!

If you want a chance to have Esmerelda come live with you all of the information is over here on this post... She and her pet spider are ready to fly, and sometime tomorrow I'll be giving her away, so best get your comments in as fast as you can!!!

14 October 2014

Well, this is interesting...

I was so excited with the bracelet for the Art Abandonment challenge... so darned pleased with my little self for figuring something different out... but you know what's really blown up over on that group???  These...

I had some clay left over and thought I'd do something else to use it.. I mean, they are Halloween colors, and how much of them would I use until next Halloween, right?

Turns out I could be using a great big lot of it.

Six hundred plus "likes", so very many requests to buy some...

And I've even had a note from a gallery...

And here I thought these were secondary to the bracelet...

So, if anyone is interested, some houses will be available on Monday...

13 October 2014

Abandoning art...

I belong to this group over on Facebook called Art Abandonment... you guys know I've left my art to be found for years now... but someone has actually pulled together a group, and I have to say, it is so much fun!  While I have stopped expecting anyone to let me know they have found my art (which makes it all the sweeter when they do!!!), this group is full of encouragement, so it's great!

Each month there are challenges... last month it was tiny cities.  I created this...

This month the challenge is the werewolf.  Oh, but to make it a challenge you know there has to be a catch... it has to be wearable.  Wearable Werewolf Art... seriously. Took me a bit of thinking, but I finally came up with this...

Old movie poster stickers turned into charms and then into a charm bracelet!!! Oh yeah!!  Big black glass beads and smaller glass very colorful beads added to make sure it's very cool and there ya go... challenge met. 

Wonder what it's going to be next month!?!?!

08 October 2014

If you happen to have a chance...

To check out the new Paper Holiday from Interweave Press...

You might see a familiar name....  Just sayin'...



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